This whole being alone thing....SUCKS!

Hello lovelys :)

It's been a weird week... I haven't been able to wake up on time, I haven't been really motivated to go work out, none of my clothes fit right, and I've had dreams at night about the ex-boyfriend, ugh can it get any worse?

The major thing that has really been on my mind is how much I'm really starting to hate being alone. I know that when I find that special someone, it will mean even more to me and that I shouldn't rush into things but seriously, this is getting old already! I honestly think the only person that is happy about it is my mom. I'm not in a relationship for many reasons and there good reasons but I can't help but think, am I going to be single forever?

I went to Subway last night and gave some random guy my number....Not a good idea, I've never done that before! I was really excited at first but then I thought, what the heck am I thinking, I don't want to date, I don't want anything to do with the opposite sex right now! I definitely did not put myself in a good position...

I just need to stop looking, focus on myself, and somebody will come when I least expect it...Or at least I hope!

Highlight of my weekend:

BBQ today with Josh G, Josh A, Dani, and Rachel. Josh made me some really really good chicken and Dani made some amazing mashed potatoes! It was just so nice to sit outside around the fire, chatting, and having a good time. Even though I was the 5th wheel...Lol whatever.

I hope next week turns out better! Looking forward to getting my hair done Wednesday, then Seattle for Easter weekend leaving on Friday the 2nd!