Ok due to the most recent events... I have decided that I really need to get a grip on life and take control of things.
I am almost 22 years old, I think by definition I would be consider an adult or something like that..:)but my poor dad had to drive 25 minutes to come put money in my bank account for me. Since I recently lost my job,I have had no income to pay my bills. A smart person that has been working for 6 years would have some savings put away for events like this but oh no not me...I had about $100 in my savings account, and it's long gone (obviously).
Thankfully, my parents do have the ability and the means to help me out in situations like this but who wants to be taken care of by their parents at my age? On the contrary, I do have to pay my parents back for the money they loaned me so it's not like they are handing money over like it's candy.. yeah, give me a break, my parents are smarter than that.
It is absolutely humiliating and embarrassing to be in my situation right now... Obviously there is a reason I am the way I am and why I have this insatiable appetite to spend money that I don't have. I'm going to be completely honest that I would laugh at people that used to come into Rockwood with there medicaid card, holding their brand new iPhone, with their $300 Juicy bag on their shoulder but you know....I have no money to my name (except for the $40 my dad gave me) but here I am walking around in $100 boots, $100 jeans, drinking my $4 latte, carrying around my $300 Coach purse. It's pathetic I know.
By writing this...I'm in no means trying to make people feel bad for me, I realize my mistakes and my problems with money but I'm not embarrassed to admit any of this. I am who I am and I hope to make some changes soon so I'm not stuck in this life forever because....well it sucks.
Sorry for the ramblings and hopefully I didn't offend anyone but anybody else have this problem? I'm sure there is someone who can relate! How did you get out of it or what have you done differently? I would like to know...
Have a good Friday everyone!
I'm off to the 6th annual Custers Craft Fair tomorrow :)
I am almost 22 years old, I think by definition I would be consider an adult or something like that..:)but my poor dad had to drive 25 minutes to come put money in my bank account for me. Since I recently lost my job,I have had no income to pay my bills. A smart person that has been working for 6 years would have some savings put away for events like this but oh no not me...I had about $100 in my savings account, and it's long gone (obviously).
Thankfully, my parents do have the ability and the means to help me out in situations like this but who wants to be taken care of by their parents at my age? On the contrary, I do have to pay my parents back for the money they loaned me so it's not like they are handing money over like it's candy.. yeah, give me a break, my parents are smarter than that.
It is absolutely humiliating and embarrassing to be in my situation right now... Obviously there is a reason I am the way I am and why I have this insatiable appetite to spend money that I don't have. I'm going to be completely honest that I would laugh at people that used to come into Rockwood with there medicaid card, holding their brand new iPhone, with their $300 Juicy bag on their shoulder but you know....I have no money to my name (except for the $40 my dad gave me) but here I am walking around in $100 boots, $100 jeans, drinking my $4 latte, carrying around my $300 Coach purse. It's pathetic I know.
By writing this...I'm in no means trying to make people feel bad for me, I realize my mistakes and my problems with money but I'm not embarrassed to admit any of this. I am who I am and I hope to make some changes soon so I'm not stuck in this life forever because....well it sucks.
Sorry for the ramblings and hopefully I didn't offend anyone but anybody else have this problem? I'm sure there is someone who can relate! How did you get out of it or what have you done differently? I would like to know...
Have a good Friday everyone!
I'm off to the 6th annual Custers Craft Fair tomorrow :)
22 is still young, you have nothing to worry about : )
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Michelle
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I can relate for sure. One thing I have learned is that these experiences lead you to make different decisions next time around. Don't beat yourself up, we all fall sometimes and thats what parents are supposed to do, pick you up and send you on your way.
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i completely feel you. you're only 21, and though you are on your own && independent, take it as a learning experience! you say you need to grow up, but i think you sound super mature.
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