I do still think of you from time to time

Well today I'm feeling a tad sentimental and with the holidays coming up, I can't help but want to reminisce about the past year or so of my life.

Anyone who has read my blog since the beginning has read my few posts about my ex. No, don't worry I'm not going to blog about how much I miss him or how much my life sucks without him. I actually deleted the posts because I was afraid he'd read them, pathetic I know. All I want to say is how happy I am to be alone, I never ever thought in my wildest dreams that I would be single for this long and actually be happy about it.

I finally know who I am without a man attached to me, I can do things by myself and be content. I can go to the bars and out with my friends and enjoy myself, and not be on a man hunt the whole time. I never thought I would experience a relationship like my past one and yeah maybe it has tainted my view on love and men but I know how I should be treated and I know I deserve the best, and mostly that...

I will not settle.

He taught me a lot of things about myself and some parts of our relationship I would like to forget. When me and him were together, I lost sight of who I was. I was striving to be the person that he wanted me to be. We tried to work things out numerous times but every time I came crawling back, I realized I was willing to change myself to make him happy but I didn't like that person that I was at all. 

Basically the moral of my story is...Don't change yourself for someone, and no matter how hard things get if you break up...Life will go on and you will be okay. You might think " you can't make it" or " you can't live without him" but you can and I am proof that you can. I have had great people in my life to support me and help me through it. And seriously...If you can make it through a bad break, you can make it through anything, trust me.