Monday, September 21, 2015

Spokane, USA

Growing up, my dad always told me “ I don’t want to come into the world and die in the same place, I need to see somewhere else.” I’ve always admired my dad’s honesty and realism about life but he’s now 57 and still dreams of his second home in Phoenix, Arizona. Here I am, twenty-five years old and I’ve only moved approximately two and a half miles from my childhood home that I grew up in. I stay in Spokane, Washington for many reasons, mostly I’m afraid to spread my wings but I stay here for the distinct four seasons that occur at the same time each year and that content feeling that I get when I walk in the front door of my parents house that has been our home since I was six years old. Spokane will always be my home even when you hit that halfway mark to Seattle on a road trip, when the scenery changes from miles of fields to lush greenery, I still can’t wait to get back home.  

I was brought home on February 24, 1990, to a quaint house on Woodward Road in Spokane Valley, Washington; before they decided to split the zip codes and make us our own “city.” I don’t remember that house as well as the one we’d soon move into six years later but I do remember the wood burning fireplace in the living room, the little wrought iron balcony that looked over the hallway into the kitchen that my cats Thumper and Batboy would peer over on a daily basis and mostly, the dining room that was always occupied with family meals, birthday parties with Barbie cakes and Ninja turtles for my brother. Soon after, we moved into a house on Loretta Drive just a mile away and the house that my aunt and uncle and my two older cousins lived in before us. This is the house that I had my best friend pick me up in her red Volkswagen Cabrio, and the place I still go to almost every Sunday for dinner with my parents. After countless remodel projects and my bubble gum pink bathroom being painted over, it still smells the same and my seventeen year old cat Lucy still makes the same cat chatter as she goes down the stairs. I’d love to own this home someday but for now, I just love visiting and still saying to my parents, “See you at the house.” 

In my short but meaningful twenty-five years on Earth,  I haven’t visited very many places but the places i’ve seen are not anything like Spokane, USA. Life wouldn’t be the same without that crisp fall air that starts to creep in around August 25 or the numbing cold that chills you to your bones, that makes you just want to hunker down in your heated blanket with a good book. All the places that run across my mind to move, the seasons are nothing like ours. For example, Arizona is sunny, and hotter than hell but how do you celebrate Christmas in shorts and flip flops? I tend to complain every year around the same time when the snow starts to fall and ballet flats are no longer proper footwear, but If I lived somewhere else, I would just find something else to complain about. 

Going back to my dad’s early quote about living and dying in the same place, perhaps we all just want to stick with what’s familiar. You can change a lot of things about your life; get a new job, a new boyfriend/girlfriend, or a new car but there is something to be said about being born and raised in Spokane, Washington where you can get to Colbert, WA in 20 minutes, there are 3 different pho restaurants to choose from within a 3 mile radius, and where we have blocks of cars that was deemed it’s own nickname “Auto Row.” 

Thursday, September 10, 2015

No matter where you run, you just end up running into yourself


I'm back on the blogging world..

2 years since my last post. Things have changed a lot. 

1. i'm not 23 anymore
2. i'm still single
3. i now have a cat so refer back to #2 
4. I'm still trying to answer that last blog post question, is there a lid to every pot? 
5. what are your thoughts on Wendys cheeseburgers? 

I leave you with this article I read today. I sent it to one of my friends, his response " that looks like a depressing read." He never responded so... Hope he's okay. 



I tend to completely agree with "you're closed off to relationships." Over the past few years, I've become accustomed to having more of a connection with myself and my thoughts than with someone else. But really, most of the time I just get lost in my own thoughts and sometimes it makes it harder for me to connect with people. I have my reasons why i'm single, and 98% of those reasons are all me. I'm a work in progress.



Also, currently i'm working full time and taking 5 credits of school attempting to get my AA. Even with those 2 very busy aspects of my life, I don't feel busy enough. I feel like I should be feeding the hungry, writing a book, and learning Chinese all while working and getting an education because to me, not only are you busy but you're bettering yourself with all of those extracurricular activities. 

The rest of the article has valid points though a lot of them I don't completely see in myself. For my first post back in the blog world, I hope it makes you think. What makes you happy? What drives you? And when your unhappy, how do you remedy those feelings? For me, it's getting my thoughts down on this blog (or typed journal) or a good sound board kind of friend.