Ok Kaylene time to grow up...

Ok due to the most recent events... I have decided that I really need to get a grip on life and take control of things.


I am almost 22 years old, I think by definition I would be consider an adult or something like that..:)but my poor dad had to drive 25 minutes to come put money in my bank account for me. Since I recently lost my job,I have had no income to pay my bills. A smart person that has been working for 6 years would have some savings put away for events like this but oh no not me...I had about $100 in my savings account, and it's long gone (obviously).


Thankfully, my parents do have the ability and the means to help me out in situations like this but who wants to be taken care of by their parents at my age? On the contrary, I do have to pay my parents back for the money they loaned me so it's not like they are handing money over like it's candy.. yeah, give me a break, my parents are smarter than that. 


It is absolutely humiliating and embarrassing to be in my situation right now... Obviously there is a reason I am the way I am and why I have this insatiable appetite to spend money that I don't have. I'm going to be completely honest that I would laugh at people that used to come into Rockwood with there medicaid card, holding their brand new iPhone, with their $300 Juicy bag on their shoulder but you know....I have no money to my name (except for the $40 my dad gave me) but here I am walking around in $100 boots, $100 jeans, drinking my $4 latte, carrying around my $300 Coach purse. It's pathetic I know. 


By writing this...I'm in no means trying to make people feel bad for me, I realize my mistakes and my problems with money but I'm not embarrassed to admit any of this. I am who I am and I hope to make some changes soon so I'm not stuck in this life forever because....well it sucks.


Sorry for the ramblings and hopefully I didn't offend anyone but anybody else have this problem? I'm sure there is someone who can relate! How did you get out of it or what have you done differently? I would like to know...


Have a good Friday everyone! 
I'm off to the 6th annual Custers Craft Fair tomorrow :) 

I do still think of you from time to time

Well today I'm feeling a tad sentimental and with the holidays coming up, I can't help but want to reminisce about the past year or so of my life.

Anyone who has read my blog since the beginning has read my few posts about my ex. No, don't worry I'm not going to blog about how much I miss him or how much my life sucks without him. I actually deleted the posts because I was afraid he'd read them, pathetic I know. All I want to say is how happy I am to be alone, I never ever thought in my wildest dreams that I would be single for this long and actually be happy about it.

I finally know who I am without a man attached to me, I can do things by myself and be content. I can go to the bars and out with my friends and enjoy myself, and not be on a man hunt the whole time. I never thought I would experience a relationship like my past one and yeah maybe it has tainted my view on love and men but I know how I should be treated and I know I deserve the best, and mostly that...

I will not settle.

He taught me a lot of things about myself and some parts of our relationship I would like to forget. When me and him were together, I lost sight of who I was. I was striving to be the person that he wanted me to be. We tried to work things out numerous times but every time I came crawling back, I realized I was willing to change myself to make him happy but I didn't like that person that I was at all. 

Basically the moral of my story is...Don't change yourself for someone, and no matter how hard things get if you break up...Life will go on and you will be okay. You might think " you can't make it" or " you can't live without him" but you can and I am proof that you can. I have had great people in my life to support me and help me through it. And seriously...If you can make it through a bad break, you can make it through anything, trust me. 

Just another day in the life of the unemployed...

Well day 9 of unemployment.... I did some major job searching/ application submitting today so I'm feeling pretty good! I'm staying at my parents house this weekend which means free internet, homemade cookies, and my fluffy little kittens. This week actually went by pretty fast, I don't know why...it's not like I did anything exciting. My friend Kirsten and I did make an exciting little adventure to the mall, Barnes and Noble, Twigs, Michael's  and Starbucks yesterday, yeah it was quite a busy day! We spent about an hour or just browsing through books at B & N including the humor section oh my gosh if anyone goes there anytime soon you must pick up this book, I pretty much almost peed my pants because some of the answers were so funny. Ah well gotta love the life of an unemployed person. 


How many people out there have ever became unemployed like my poor self? What do you do to keep busy?! I'm constantly bored out of my mind.. All I want to do is sit on the couch and watch T.V but I know I should be more productive! Well thats all for now folks, hope everyone had a lovely day and it's almost the weekend :) 

Oh the things that can change in a month...

Welp...I got fired. Tuesday was the day that it all went down. My "sales" numbers at work weren't good enough so they gave me the boot. Now i'm unemployed, will be broke after my rent is paid, and bored out of my frickin mind. Being fired is a total kill to anyone's ego even if it is for a stupid reason. So  now I'm back on the hunt for a new job, I have a lot of great skills but it's always MUCH harder to find a job when you don't have one ya know? The job was pretty crappy and lame anyways but still...Being fired was not what I was expecting. I've been spending countless hours watching crime shows on tv, pinning things on pinterest....and well, searching for jobs of course. I wish I had more things to do but hey its not like I can be out spending money.. which is what I do best.

Seriously though, is it bad to say that getting fired was a blessing in disguise? I've had a lot of jobs in my past and it was even worse than boxing donuts at Krispy Kreme and being a hostess at a mexican restaurant with my now ex boyfriend. Anyone have any worse job stories to share? I would love to hear them. Until then I'll leave you with some cute things from Pinterest and random pictures from this weekend. And now since I have so much time on my hands perhaps I will start blogging more...

 Grandpa's 86th Birthday Celebration, mm Coldstone cake :) 

My good friend, Kirsten's, nephew Grayson as a hamburger for Halloween. So freaking cute omg.

My kitty ring purchases at a craft fair today, $3 well spent :)