Ok Kaylene time to grow up...

Ok due to the most recent events... I have decided that I really need to get a grip on life and take control of things.


I am almost 22 years old, I think by definition I would be consider an adult or something like that..:)but my poor dad had to drive 25 minutes to come put money in my bank account for me. Since I recently lost my job,I have had no income to pay my bills. A smart person that has been working for 6 years would have some savings put away for events like this but oh no not me...I had about $100 in my savings account, and it's long gone (obviously).


Thankfully, my parents do have the ability and the means to help me out in situations like this but who wants to be taken care of by their parents at my age? On the contrary, I do have to pay my parents back for the money they loaned me so it's not like they are handing money over like it's candy.. yeah, give me a break, my parents are smarter than that. 


It is absolutely humiliating and embarrassing to be in my situation right now... Obviously there is a reason I am the way I am and why I have this insatiable appetite to spend money that I don't have. I'm going to be completely honest that I would laugh at people that used to come into Rockwood with there medicaid card, holding their brand new iPhone, with their $300 Juicy bag on their shoulder but you know....I have no money to my name (except for the $40 my dad gave me) but here I am walking around in $100 boots, $100 jeans, drinking my $4 latte, carrying around my $300 Coach purse. It's pathetic I know. 


By writing this...I'm in no means trying to make people feel bad for me, I realize my mistakes and my problems with money but I'm not embarrassed to admit any of this. I am who I am and I hope to make some changes soon so I'm not stuck in this life forever because....well it sucks.


Sorry for the ramblings and hopefully I didn't offend anyone but anybody else have this problem? I'm sure there is someone who can relate! How did you get out of it or what have you done differently? I would like to know...


Have a good Friday everyone! 
I'm off to the 6th annual Custers Craft Fair tomorrow :) 

I do still think of you from time to time

Well today I'm feeling a tad sentimental and with the holidays coming up, I can't help but want to reminisce about the past year or so of my life.

Anyone who has read my blog since the beginning has read my few posts about my ex. No, don't worry I'm not going to blog about how much I miss him or how much my life sucks without him. I actually deleted the posts because I was afraid he'd read them, pathetic I know. All I want to say is how happy I am to be alone, I never ever thought in my wildest dreams that I would be single for this long and actually be happy about it.

I finally know who I am without a man attached to me, I can do things by myself and be content. I can go to the bars and out with my friends and enjoy myself, and not be on a man hunt the whole time. I never thought I would experience a relationship like my past one and yeah maybe it has tainted my view on love and men but I know how I should be treated and I know I deserve the best, and mostly that...

I will not settle.

He taught me a lot of things about myself and some parts of our relationship I would like to forget. When me and him were together, I lost sight of who I was. I was striving to be the person that he wanted me to be. We tried to work things out numerous times but every time I came crawling back, I realized I was willing to change myself to make him happy but I didn't like that person that I was at all. 

Basically the moral of my story is...Don't change yourself for someone, and no matter how hard things get if you break up...Life will go on and you will be okay. You might think " you can't make it" or " you can't live without him" but you can and I am proof that you can. I have had great people in my life to support me and help me through it. And seriously...If you can make it through a bad break, you can make it through anything, trust me. 

Just another day in the life of the unemployed...

Well day 9 of unemployment.... I did some major job searching/ application submitting today so I'm feeling pretty good! I'm staying at my parents house this weekend which means free internet, homemade cookies, and my fluffy little kittens. This week actually went by pretty fast, I don't know why...it's not like I did anything exciting. My friend Kirsten and I did make an exciting little adventure to the mall, Barnes and Noble, Twigs, Michael's  and Starbucks yesterday, yeah it was quite a busy day! We spent about an hour or just browsing through books at B & N including the humor section oh my gosh if anyone goes there anytime soon you must pick up this book, I pretty much almost peed my pants because some of the answers were so funny. Ah well gotta love the life of an unemployed person. 


How many people out there have ever became unemployed like my poor self? What do you do to keep busy?! I'm constantly bored out of my mind.. All I want to do is sit on the couch and watch T.V but I know I should be more productive! Well thats all for now folks, hope everyone had a lovely day and it's almost the weekend :) 

Oh the things that can change in a month...

Welp...I got fired. Tuesday was the day that it all went down. My "sales" numbers at work weren't good enough so they gave me the boot. Now i'm unemployed, will be broke after my rent is paid, and bored out of my frickin mind. Being fired is a total kill to anyone's ego even if it is for a stupid reason. So  now I'm back on the hunt for a new job, I have a lot of great skills but it's always MUCH harder to find a job when you don't have one ya know? The job was pretty crappy and lame anyways but still...Being fired was not what I was expecting. I've been spending countless hours watching crime shows on tv, pinning things on pinterest....and well, searching for jobs of course. I wish I had more things to do but hey its not like I can be out spending money.. which is what I do best.

Seriously though, is it bad to say that getting fired was a blessing in disguise? I've had a lot of jobs in my past and it was even worse than boxing donuts at Krispy Kreme and being a hostess at a mexican restaurant with my now ex boyfriend. Anyone have any worse job stories to share? I would love to hear them. Until then I'll leave you with some cute things from Pinterest and random pictures from this weekend. And now since I have so much time on my hands perhaps I will start blogging more...

 Grandpa's 86th Birthday Celebration, mm Coldstone cake :) 

My good friend, Kirsten's, nephew Grayson as a hamburger for Halloween. So freaking cute omg.

My kitty ring purchases at a craft fair today, $3 well spent :) 

Goodbye Washington Apples, Hello Spudheads!

Well everyone...I moved across the border and now reside in Idaho! So much has happened these past couple of months and I kind of don't know where to begin but lets just say...My summer was a little disappointing and full of drama. I will spare the gritty details because well I'm sure someone from my family will read this and I don't want to make anyone upset. 

A recap of the last few months is as follows:

- Had a fabulous time in Vegas with my mom ( will post pictures later) 

- Broke the news to my rents that I failed my math class....keep in mind its math 96, yeah embarrassing I know. 

- Got in a big ol' fight with my mom and ended up couch surfing for about a month, yeah never thought I would be kicked out but once your an adult living in your parents house, I guess they have the right to do that.

- Dropped out of summer school, quit my easy schmeezy job at Rockwood

- Got hired at Us Bank out here in Coeur D' Alene 

- Now live in a lovely little 2 bedroom apartment by myself, best decision I've ever made. No more roommates ever again! 

You  know that 1800 number you call when you lose your credit card or don't recognize a charge on your statement or call with any other ridiculously stupid question, well that's me answering the phone :) 

I am 1 employee of about 1500 working at 1 of the 3 call centers of Us Bank, the other 2 are in Fargo, North Dakota and Overland Park, Kansas. It's a decent job, I shouldn't complain but definitely can't see myself staying there past the year that I have to to be able to transfer.

 I gave up an easy job that  I loved, living rent free with my parents, and working part time while getting an education. You might think I'm stupid and how the hell could I give  up something like that to do what I'm doing now? Well I had no idea what I was going to school for, living with my parents was miserable, and my job at Rockwood had no future. I have a year long lease here at my apartment and who knows where I'm going to go after that? If I stay with Us Bank, I could really go anywhere it takes me and even pursue a career in banking which would mean I'd be a banker just like my mama. 

It's a lot to think about but for now, I'm just trying to take it one day at a time. I gave up a lot to move out here so all I can do is stay positive and hope that better things come my way. 

More later....I'll upload pics from Vegas maybe later tonight or tomorrow. 

xoxox

Kaylene 

Summer school is ruining my summer...

Do you remember when you were in high school and you decided to do summer school  because it was easier and it was an easy A, and an easy way to get extra credits. Yeah well...college doesn't exactly follow that concept. I just completed week 2 of summer school which consists of english (online), US history, and Yoga. Yoga is amazing, forgot how much I love it :)History on the other hand...is a nightmare. It's an 80 minute class and their usually 50, the extra 30 minutes just kills meeee! The class is taught by an old guy....who literally stands in one spot the whole class period, and just rambles on and on...and on. I've lucked out of having pretty decent instructors at SCC but this guy is just terrible. We only have class 3 days a week, a test every Thursday and we go through 2 chapters each week. Just trying to tell myself..I'm halfway through then we will have a different instructor the rest of the qtr.

We are reading 3 different books in English; Dracula, Lord of the Flies, and Wuthering Heights. Each book comes with about 20 pages of lecture notes, a 100 pt exam, then a paper about the book due a week after you take the exam on it. Thank goodness my instructor is the same one I had for English 101, and she is an easy grader and cool lady.

On other news...So many other things have been going on and I kind of don't know where to begin. I need to sort out my thoughts then I'll update a bit more after I get home from work tomorrow.

I'll leave you with some cute pictures I ran across...

Have a good night everyone!

((haha this is kind of true...))

i used to be the sweetest girl ever, 
until i found out being the baddest bitch was better.

If that is a really tattoo on her finger...I can't imagine how bad that hurt but I love it, so cute! 

((oh and this..))

Lesson Learned..

i've had the nice boys, 
the ones who would drop whatever they're doing 
to run to macdonalds and get me a cheeseburger, 
the ones who bring you flowers 
when you have cramps. 
but i also had the boys that are complete assholes, 
who probably used me for sex, 
and who were just someone to have fun with. 
but to be honest, 
i'd chose the jerk everytime.



the best way to not get your heart broken,
is to pretend you don't have one.

Book Worm

Hope everyone had a good weekend :)

I love to read...There I said it, I am a MAJOR book worm. Ever since I was young, I have always loved to read. I've always had library cards to both the county & city library. I would literally walk out of that place with a bag of books, have them finished in a week and go back for another bag. Since my brother bought me a Kindle for my birthday, I have grown even more obsessed. This little device is seriously awesome, cannot believe what technology has come too. My wish list on Amazon is around 3 pages long and growing by the day. I just finished the book "Something Borrowed" inspired by the movie that came out recently with Kate Hudson. This book absolutely is fabulous, and had a happy ending. Cannot wait to read the next one! 

Here's my lil' Kindle. Notice the fancy angle that I took it at, trying to work on my photography skills a bit. 

Also, my fancy new phone cover came in the mail on Saturday from InvisibleShield. These covers are awesome, they are a little tricky to get on but I like them much better than the big, bulky covers. 

Don't mind my partially risque tank top, its a little old and streched out :P 

I found this background off of an app on my phone and thought it'd make a good phone cover, and it looks really sharp against the white iPhone. Love love love it. I know I said I would pick my favorite thing every day well, this is my favorite thing of the day post. I am officially obsessed :) 

I am trying to not make this post to long...but it seems I have a lot of say and show :) 

Anyone heard Lil Waynes song "How to Love?" I only like a few of his songs since most of them are pretty vulgar and just downright weird. But this song is definitely a favorite, who knew someone like him could pull of a song like this. 

Just a few good quotes to end my post...

Enjoy!

"Good judgement comes from experience.  Experience comes from bad judgement."

"There will always be those people in your life who will never want you to do better for yourself.  Those people don't matter."

"I'll tell you this, people don't fall in love with what's right in front of them.  People want the dream.  What they can't have.  The more unattainable, the more attractive."

"The things that I remember best, those are the things I wasn't supposed to do and I did them anyway."

Las Vegas on the mind....

In 18 days I will be boarding an airplane at 6am to..

I am so damn excited, I can hardly contain it! For my 21st birthday which was in February, my mom bought me and her tickets to Vegas and tickets to see Garth Brooks at the Wynn. It was very generous of her and definitely a little surprising to say the least. 

But before I go to Vegas...I must get through this last 1 week of school and finals :/ Once finals are over, I'll have a few days off before I leave then I will start summer school the very next day after I get back. I need to try to enjoy myself as much as possible since I will be working away at school during the day until August 22nd. People think I am completely insane for doing summer school but...I tried to justify it by it's only until August, I'm out by 12:30, and I have Friday's off and most importantly, the more credits I take, the sooner I get done at SCC! 

Yesterday was an absolutely gorgeous day in Spokane, USA. When the sun is finally shining, and everyone is outside doing fun stuff, Spokane's beauty really comes out. My friend and I went out to lunch at Cyrus O' Learys and went down to look at the river since it is absolutely crazy from all the rain we've been having. 

Such a pretty city... :) 

I'll update more later, I need to do some studying this evening. I put it all off yesterday... 

Making Some Changes

Happy Friday Everyone! (Even though I have to work tomorrow)

I was doing a little bit of blogging research yesterday after I wrote the previous post, I just wanted some tips on

 how to  make a cool blog and have it not be totally boring. I found some good tips but one that stood out was finding a subject for your blog, might it be fashion, healthy living, video games or whatever else strikes your fancy. I don't want this to be my rambling/bitching blog, that's not fun. I decided I'd dedicate this blog to my life as the new and improved budgeting/frugal girl. I'll share with you my triumphs and disappointments which I'm sure there will be. 

One thing I also was thinking about doing was a "my favorite thing" part where each day I put one of my favorites things. Anyone who knows me, knows I am a creature of habit, once I find something I love, I stick with it and have a hard time "trying new things." I'll share with you my favorite makeup, clothes/brands, food, coffee and everything else in between because trust me, I do have a lot of favorite things. 

Since I have to start getting ready for work, it's gonna be a short post but since it was payday, I started my budget. Since my bank account was overdrafted, I didn't get my full paycheck which was very frustrating.. but live and learn. I went to the bank and took out cash for gas to cover next week and got cash out for my one and only coffee that I will be able to have :( Since my paycheck was less, I wasn't able to put $15 for coffee, and $30 for dinner out so I'm going to have to go without. It feels good to have a plan but I know it's going to be tough, I'm definitely going to find ways to be frugal and cheap. 

That's all for now :) 

But I will post "my favorite thing:"

My Viva La Juicy Perfume

This stuff is amazinggg, it smells fantastic and it stays on you all day and I can still smell it on my clothes at the end of day, love it :) 

Notes:

Wild Berries, Mandarins, Honeysuckle, Gardenia, Jasmine, Amber, Caramel, Vanilla, Sandalwood, Praline.

Hope everyone has a good day, I'm at work till 8pm :( 

xoxo 

Hi, I'm Kaylene and I'm addicted to spending money...

Hello everyone!

I have came to a startling realization that I have a major money problem, I knew I always have had an insatiable appetite for everything designer but now it seems to be coming to the surface. I spend my money like a drunken sailor and it has to stop. I have decided no more $0 bank account, no more daily latte habit, and no more wining and dining like I'm a millionaire. 

I'm a student, I live at home and I work part time, I can't be rich too along with that. Right now, going to school is my main priority and I need to be okay with making some sacrifices in the mean time. Hopefully, when I graduate from college, I can buy a new car myself, have a place of my own, shop without worry at my favorite stores but from this point on, it's hitting the sales rack, eating at home, drinking beer instead of expensive girly drinks. I have made a budget for  myself and I will be sticking to it.

My mom has always told me....Money and things don't make a person who they are. All nice things are great but if your going broke having them, what's the enjoyment in that? I think I have great qualities, does it make me any better of a person because I'm dressed from head to toe in clothes that cost a whole month's mortgage? So here goes nothin...I know this sounds extreme but it's something that has to be done for me..and my family( who is getting sick of me being broke)

I don't know if you have heard of xanga. com but it's also a blogging website...but I'm obsessed with visiting their site and looking at peoples profiles with just quotes and photographs

Xanga Groups

...And then type in either quotes or photographs.. 

Here's some of my faves: 

the truth is, everyone is going to hurt you. you just have to find the ones worth suffering for. -bob marley 

You've gotten so caught up in being alone that you're afraid of what might happen if you actually find someone else that can take you away from it.

I can’t rely on men. Doesn’t mean I don’t love them. Doesn’t mean I walk out. Just means I adjust my expectations. Men are weak.

Love love love this show...

 The sad thing is we're never happy with what we've got. We're silly, selfish, and naive always believing that things could be so much better when really, this is the best it'll get. It's no wonder why love never lasts. It's because we're always taking it up that notch and expecting something magnificent. Perfect. Well let me tell you something - there's no such thing as perfection.

See ya Spokane...Be back Sunday :)

I leave for Seattle on Friday, and I am very excited but this week is taking forever! I still have 3 more days of school and 2 more days of work..Ugh! I'm so impatient. 

I made a trip to Sports Authority today...Not my first choice to buy a jacket but I finally decided to join the North Face band wagon...Not the fleece though because they are $165, omg! I was shocked. I found a cute cranberry colored windbreaker type jacket for only $80, that's the cheapest I've seen! My only reason for buying a new jacket was because my nice black jacket has been left at the ex-bf's house..and I don't think I will be getting it back but actually, I don't even want it back. I would rather buy a new one..I know that sounds really pathetic.  And since I leave for Seattle, I need something light to wear around town.

Here's my cute little jacket, it's light and big enough to layer a sweatshirt under it

My mirror in my room is a little dirty as you can tell..

Well I have a ton of homework that I've saved until now, so I will write more later.

Ciao! 

Remodeling the blog

I changed the title of my blog to Sassy Pants, just thought I'd let you know why. My brother came up with the nickname a few years ago because well...I am sassy and the name has stuck ever since. For my 19th birthday, my brother put my present in a bag with the name Sassy Pants on it and now that bag is recycled ever year haha..See the pic below, this is from my 21st birthday! 

:) 

A few quick updates...

Decided to check out my blog today...See what I've been missing! It's been awhile and I keep telling myself I will continue to write. Here's a quick update of my life:


1. Started Spring Quarter, math and English :( Math is not my strong suit and I'm going to have to work my ass off for a good grade.


2. I now work as an operator, still at Rockwood Clinic ( April 13th will be my 2yr anniversary:) I like my job a lot, and the people I work with make it that much better.


3. I am still single...Over 1 year now! But it has honestly been the best year, focusing on myself and realizing that I can be who I am and not lose myself when I meet a guy. The right one will come along...But for now, I'm not putting much focus on it because I love having so much independence.


4. I'm still living at my parents house....Yeah it really sucks sometimes but it's been saving me money and with the stress of school, I don't have to worry about the stress of paying bills and rent on top of it.


5. I am really beginning to realize the good things in my life..and weeding out the bad things/people. Life is too short to fill it with unimportant things or flaky friends ( Which I have struggled with). I am so lucky and really have taken the things I have for granted in the past. Maybe I am finally growing up...


Well that's all for now, hopefully i'll be back!