Monday, September 21, 2015

Spokane, USA

Growing up, my dad always told me “ I don’t want to come into the world and die in the same place, I need to see somewhere else.” I’ve always admired my dad’s honesty and realism about life but he’s now 57 and still dreams of his second home in Phoenix, Arizona. Here I am, twenty-five years old and I’ve only moved approximately two and a half miles from my childhood home that I grew up in. I stay in Spokane, Washington for many reasons, mostly I’m afraid to spread my wings but I stay here for the distinct four seasons that occur at the same time each year and that content feeling that I get when I walk in the front door of my parents house that has been our home since I was six years old. Spokane will always be my home even when you hit that halfway mark to Seattle on a road trip, when the scenery changes from miles of fields to lush greenery, I still can’t wait to get back home.  

I was brought home on February 24, 1990, to a quaint house on Woodward Road in Spokane Valley, Washington; before they decided to split the zip codes and make us our own “city.” I don’t remember that house as well as the one we’d soon move into six years later but I do remember the wood burning fireplace in the living room, the little wrought iron balcony that looked over the hallway into the kitchen that my cats Thumper and Batboy would peer over on a daily basis and mostly, the dining room that was always occupied with family meals, birthday parties with Barbie cakes and Ninja turtles for my brother. Soon after, we moved into a house on Loretta Drive just a mile away and the house that my aunt and uncle and my two older cousins lived in before us. This is the house that I had my best friend pick me up in her red Volkswagen Cabrio, and the place I still go to almost every Sunday for dinner with my parents. After countless remodel projects and my bubble gum pink bathroom being painted over, it still smells the same and my seventeen year old cat Lucy still makes the same cat chatter as she goes down the stairs. I’d love to own this home someday but for now, I just love visiting and still saying to my parents, “See you at the house.” 

In my short but meaningful twenty-five years on Earth,  I haven’t visited very many places but the places i’ve seen are not anything like Spokane, USA. Life wouldn’t be the same without that crisp fall air that starts to creep in around August 25 or the numbing cold that chills you to your bones, that makes you just want to hunker down in your heated blanket with a good book. All the places that run across my mind to move, the seasons are nothing like ours. For example, Arizona is sunny, and hotter than hell but how do you celebrate Christmas in shorts and flip flops? I tend to complain every year around the same time when the snow starts to fall and ballet flats are no longer proper footwear, but If I lived somewhere else, I would just find something else to complain about. 

Going back to my dad’s early quote about living and dying in the same place, perhaps we all just want to stick with what’s familiar. You can change a lot of things about your life; get a new job, a new boyfriend/girlfriend, or a new car but there is something to be said about being born and raised in Spokane, Washington where you can get to Colbert, WA in 20 minutes, there are 3 different pho restaurants to choose from within a 3 mile radius, and where we have blocks of cars that was deemed it’s own nickname “Auto Row.” 

Thursday, September 10, 2015

No matter where you run, you just end up running into yourself


I'm back on the blogging world..

2 years since my last post. Things have changed a lot. 

1. i'm not 23 anymore
2. i'm still single
3. i now have a cat so refer back to #2 
4. I'm still trying to answer that last blog post question, is there a lid to every pot? 
5. what are your thoughts on Wendys cheeseburgers? 

I leave you with this article I read today. I sent it to one of my friends, his response " that looks like a depressing read." He never responded so... Hope he's okay. 



I tend to completely agree with "you're closed off to relationships." Over the past few years, I've become accustomed to having more of a connection with myself and my thoughts than with someone else. But really, most of the time I just get lost in my own thoughts and sometimes it makes it harder for me to connect with people. I have my reasons why i'm single, and 98% of those reasons are all me. I'm a work in progress.



Also, currently i'm working full time and taking 5 credits of school attempting to get my AA. Even with those 2 very busy aspects of my life, I don't feel busy enough. I feel like I should be feeding the hungry, writing a book, and learning Chinese all while working and getting an education because to me, not only are you busy but you're bettering yourself with all of those extracurricular activities. 

The rest of the article has valid points though a lot of them I don't completely see in myself. For my first post back in the blog world, I hope it makes you think. What makes you happy? What drives you? And when your unhappy, how do you remedy those feelings? For me, it's getting my thoughts down on this blog (or typed journal) or a good sound board kind of friend. 














Thursday, January 9, 2014

There's a lid to every tea pot.. Even the weird shaped ones.

I said I was going to blog 5 months ago and I never did... I had some inspiration tonight after dinner with my dad. My return back into the blogosphere(that's a word right?), here goes nothing.

As I near my 4 year anniversary of being single, I can't help but think back to the phrase my aunt so often tells me and that is " There is a lid to every tea pot." Something my grandma also used to tell her when she was growing up. 

 I was telling my dad tonight that maybe there just isn't someone out there for me, maybe i'm just destined to be single forever. In a world where we are always on the quest to find our other half and to live happily ever after, and to update our relationship status on Facebook. I am content experiencing life as an independent person. It's okay to be alone, to take up the whole bed at night, to stay in your pajamas till noon, and to buy that lululemon gym bag because you need something ridiculously colored like that for the gym. 

I don't want my life to be a constant string of break ups ,makeups, one night stands, deleted pictures on my phone, relationship statuses that change weekly, and "sorry it's not you, it's me." Maybe I am selfish for wanting to experience what life has to offer before I settle down but we spend so much time searching for someone else, do we ever really take the time to know ourselves and be alone before we find that someone we'll spend the rest of our lives with? 

So here's to 2014; the year that I will enjoy everything that life brings my way, to try new things, and to keep hanging onto the fact that sometimes it's okay to be alone. 


Cheers : ) 

Sunday, August 11, 2013

I have returned!

Hey Everyone,

I've decided to come back into the blogging world. I'm going to work on changing things around a bit. 

I have decided to blog about my journey the last 3 months into a healthy lifestyle. 

My journey started on April 26 when I decided to do a fitness challenge with my friend for 90 days. The challenge is over but I've kept up with being healthy and it's becoming a way of life that I'm completely in love with.

8 pounds lost, Body Fat down from 31% to 25%, and 2 inches lost in my waist. I feel great and people have started to notice the changes in me. Stay tuned for more..








Sunday, April 22, 2012

Ohh hey I've been MIA

Hey Fellow Bloggers (9 to be exact)..

It's been awhile...Almost 5 months actually. I decided to re-enter the "blogosphere" because reading all of your blogs every day has given me some inspiration to start writing again.

Oh and I got internet at my apartment...Been a long 6 months without it, I actually think my vision has gotten worse from squinting to look at my iphone for endless hours. 

As I write..I look out my sliding door to see sunshine,birds flying around...oh and the sounds of screaming children about 5 of them to be exact. I finally had to close it to block out the noise. They play in the apartment complex parking lot next to me... Real safe I tell ya, never really see any parents but I do hear them screaming from their balconies! Will someone remind me next time not to decide on the second apartment I look at that is the one? Because this place is ghetto.. Can't wait to get out of here in August! Between the few ants scurrying around in my apartment (yeah gross) , loud neighbors, no parking for visitors because everyone has 1,2 or 3 cars, disrespectful punks with their loud motorcycles, "fart can" cars, and diesel trucks..I have about had it with this place! 

On other news, I started my "Couch to 5k Training" today. I've ran across quite a few articles about how to train yourself to run and I've always wanted to do it so with it getting nicer out and me gaining a few pounds the last few months, I decided now was the time! I was going to just go off a chart that I found online that outlines the intervals of running and walking each day, slowly progressing to when you can run 3.10 miles (that's a 5k apparently, never knew that) in about 9 weeks. 

But..instead of using the chart and having to pay attention to a stop watch, trying to pick my music, and just the whole feat of running in general.. I decided to go with an app on my phone. Seriously best $2 I ever spent. It guides you through the whole thing with a sweet lady named Constance telling you when to run and when to walk. Here is my 1st day complete, felt like I was gonna die but damn did it feel good after! And no Active.com I will not be posting this to Facebook...Maybe when I can run 3 miles in a reasonable amount of time I will!


Well 1 last thing before I finish up this episode of Law and Order, here are my pics for my new workout purchases I made.Yes I run 1 day and decide I need new workout stuff. All this stuff for $74 (Regular Price total would be about $155), not to bad! Probably could have been a bit cheaper but I'm a brat and only like Nike and Adidas.. :) 
Nike Shorts $12.99 Reg. $30
Just ignore my dorky facial expression lol. 
Roxy Tank $12.99 Reg. $26
Adidas Capris $19.99 Reg. 40 
Nike Tee $9.99 Reg. $28 
Nike Dri-Fit Tee $12.99 Reg. $30

Pretty excited to wear my new stuff and not sweat like a pig  like I did today. All the stuff I bought, I made sure that it was "Dri-Fit", I read somewhere or something  this is the best way to go because it keeps you cool and pulls away sweat instead of clinging to you like most things. And hey its good to look forward to a work out when you like your workout clothes! Maybe someday I'll buy myself some lululemon gear but for now it's Tj Maxx.

Thanks for stopping by and I'll be back tomorrow with updates on my new job(s)!





Tuesday, November 15, 2011

Ok Kaylene time to grow up...

Ok due to the most recent events... I have decided that I really need to get a grip on life and take control of things.


I am almost 22 years old, I think by definition I would be consider an adult or something like that..:)but my poor dad had to drive 25 minutes to come put money in my bank account for me. Since I recently lost my job,I have had no income to pay my bills. A smart person that has been working for 6 years would have some savings put away for events like this but oh no not me...I had about $100 in my savings account, and it's long gone (obviously).


Thankfully, my parents do have the ability and the means to help me out in situations like this but who wants to be taken care of by their parents at my age? On the contrary, I do have to pay my parents back for the money they loaned me so it's not like they are handing money over like it's candy.. yeah, give me a break, my parents are smarter than that. 


It is absolutely humiliating and embarrassing to be in my situation right now... Obviously there is a reason I am the way I am and why I have this insatiable appetite to spend money that I don't have. I'm going to be completely honest that I would laugh at people that used to come into Rockwood with there medicaid card, holding their brand new iPhone, with their $300 Juicy bag on their shoulder but you know....I have no money to my name (except for the $40 my dad gave me) but here I am walking around in $100 boots, $100 jeans, drinking my $4 latte, carrying around my $300 Coach purse. It's pathetic I know. 


By writing this...I'm in no means trying to make people feel bad for me, I realize my mistakes and my problems with money but I'm not embarrassed to admit any of this. I am who I am and I hope to make some changes soon so I'm not stuck in this life forever because....well it sucks.


Sorry for the ramblings and hopefully I didn't offend anyone but anybody else have this problem? I'm sure there is someone who can relate! How did you get out of it or what have you done differently? I would like to know...


Have a good Friday everyone! 
I'm off to the 6th annual Custers Craft Fair tomorrow :) 

Friday, November 11, 2011

I do still think of you from time to time

Well today I'm feeling a tad sentimental and with the holidays coming up, I can't help but want to reminisce about the past year or so of my life.

Anyone who has read my blog since the beginning has read my few posts about my ex. No, don't worry I'm not going to blog about how much I miss him or how much my life sucks without him. I actually deleted the posts because I was afraid he'd read them, pathetic I know. All I want to say is how happy I am to be alone, I never ever thought in my wildest dreams that I would be single for this long and actually be happy about it.

I finally know who I am without a man attached to me, I can do things by myself and be content. I can go to the bars and out with my friends and enjoy myself, and not be on a man hunt the whole time. I never thought I would experience a relationship like my past one and yeah maybe it has tainted my view on love and men but I know how I should be treated and I know I deserve the best, and mostly that...

I will not settle.

He taught me a lot of things about myself and some parts of our relationship I would like to forget. When me and him were together, I lost sight of who I was. I was striving to be the person that he wanted me to be. We tried to work things out numerous times but every time I came crawling back, I realized I was willing to change myself to make him happy but I didn't like that person that I was at all. 

Basically the moral of my story is...Don't change yourself for someone, and no matter how hard things get if you break up...Life will go on and you will be okay. You might think " you can't make it" or " you can't live without him" but you can and I am proof that you can. I have had great people in my life to support me and help me through it. And seriously...If you can make it through a bad break, you can make it through anything, trust me.